the past few days have been pretty quiet. i've not felt very well, for starters, so i've not done much, and the recent storms haven't helped much. i haven't hit the depressed part of the cycle -- we've gotten enough sun here and there to keep that at bay -- but i'm spending a lot of time in bed and taking it easy anyway. and i think i've pinpointed the whole reason for not feeling too well.
i've been on a med called megace in some form or other since before the d&c, so well over 6 months. this has been to help my body recover and to keep me from bleeding to death. i didn't have any problems getting on the med. but now we're trying to use it to regulate my cycle and see if i can actually have a normal cycle at all. so i'll be off the medication for 5 days a month, and this month is my first time trying the new cycle.
now the symptoms i've been experiencing are very "sick" related, but they've not developed into a full blown illness. unusual for me, since because of the anemia i catch everything, get it worse than anyone, and keep it longer. that this sick feeling has lingered and not done anything is, well, odd. totally not in my usual pattern. the other night, i finally realized this sick feeling started about the time i stopped taking the megace (a day or two after, actually). so i went and checked the med out, and my symptoms are either similar to or are exactly the symptoms that are associated with starting the medication. not sure why i'd get them when going off the med, but the timing and the fact that they aren't developing into a full blown flu or something seems to point to the med being the problem. hopefully the body will adjust as we get into this cycle, but even if it doesn't, i'd rather be queasy and whatnot for a week than bleed to death all month.
i've also been trying to finish up my holiday baking, but have had a few issues with that as well. the only excuse i have for consistently screwing up cookies i've been making every year for at least half a dozen years is that the oven is new. every oven is different, and i didn't think about the oven being "new" for baking since we've had it since summer or just before summer. regardless, it's still the first cookie baking i've done with it, so it needs some careful watching until i figure out the temps and times that work best. a pain in the butt, but at least i now know how to deal with the issues i've been having.
as a result of the general crappiness and frustration, i haven't been writing. i did, however, start the new whysper design for next year. still formulating it a bit, but i do have a background. just need to go from there. working on some pieces for it. then i just have to figure out how i want to put it all together. should be interesting. not sure it'll be one of my faves, but at least i'll have a new design up in time...i hope. a few who have previewed the background like it. so that's something.
it's also been pretty quiet because kitten and baby cat have been off with friends all weekend. amazing how reducing the household by two can bring the noise level down. add to this that the phones have even been quiet this weekend, and it's been a really nice, low key few days. no major crises, a little frustration with the baking problems but nothing major. work has gotten done. despite feeling sick, it's actually been okay. after all the upsets over the past few months, all the changes, all the stresses (old and new), it's nice to have a few days where life is fairly quiet.
i seriously need more of them. :P
and now i'm off to work on dishes, the new layout, some reading, and some baking. tomorrow promises to be busy, and i want to soak up as much os this life in quiet as i can.
