it appears the job saga isn't over quite yet. according to lady s, the teacher i befriended at the school i subbed the last month of the year, it took her 4 months to get a position.

4 months?

i am completely stressed about this, of course, but there's not a whole lot i can do about it. word is the county is going to be hiring over 1300 teachers this year, and all i can do is hope i'm one of the earlier hires after this. neither of my top choices of schools has openings right now. in fact, the school i subbed the last month of last year had an opening till some time last week - 7th grade language arts even. my scores were just a week too late to get me considered for it.

so later today (after i actually sleep and saxy gets some work done at the job) we'll be going out with 6 more resumes. my only concern is that the schools that are local enough for us to take resumes to are all established schools, which means they have a higher likelihood of not needing me. after that, well, really, i guess i'll have to take almost anything i'm offered, maybe even that drama position at froggy's school . . . if it's offered. in the meantime, i'll still be able to sub.

unfortunately, that won't get us out of our current financial hole. i need full time and the fact that it may not be offered immediately has me worried. i've been worried since i dropped off my scores monday. it's affecting my ability to concentrate, even my sleeping is getting worse. i barely slept at all last night and tonight i keep fading in and out - i'm tired, get settled in, and the next thing i know i'm awake. and, really, everything's fine except the financial end of things (as always).

well, that's not quite true. these storms are making me a little sick too. almost everyday for the last week, the morning is fine - sunny even! - and then an afternoon thunderstorm rolls through. it's over in a few hours, and we usually end up with fairly clear nights, but not being able to adjust to the storm pressure is killing me. my head hurts so much i'm sick to my stomach and i'm practically living on pain killers. most of the evening, i'm pretty much out of it, with that foggy after affect of the headaches and a dull ache still hovering in the background, and groggy from the meds. i wasn't able to function at all yesterday. couldn't focus enough to crit, couldn't even play well on the ps2. heck, even my writing suffered and i couldn't pick up any of the 3 books i'm just plain reading right now.

i did manage to call county and my file is listed as complete and should go to the director next week for approval. if a principle actually wants to hire me before then (unlikely - a lot of them are apparently off to some 2005-2006 prep conference or something), then they can push the process a little, but i don't see that happening.

i also called taz's school about the transportation snafu. have to call back on monday to get a definitive answer as to what's up with it.

beyond that, i pretty much vegged in bed. didn't even read, really.

well, better get myself back to bed (to sleep this time). it was a long day, even if unproductive, and tomorrow i not only have to ride around in the car all afternoon in muggy heat (and probably pouring rain), but i get to spend the morning writing directions from one place to another. in other words, i just became trip planner for the afternoon.

good thing i figured out how to read a map when got here because, damn! i've needed that sucker!

and, hey, vagner's on my side of the bed, just waiting to be snuggled up with. he's sorta been hovering a little most of the evening. my baby seems to have been a bit worried about me. or so i'd like to think.