the year is almost over and i am really glad for it. not that this year was absolutely
horrible. we didn't have major computer crashes around the world (maybe in some
small countries, but we never heard about them); we're housed, clothed and fed;
and we're ending on the up note of being together as a family. things on the net
got crazy but seem to have settled nicely now. in fact, over all the year seems
to have been a bit on the wild side, but is winding to a quiet and more settled
close. at least for me. i know of some who are having life ending crazier than
it started this year. but for us, it is isn't closing badly and this is good,
all things considered.
however, there are just some things i am ready to move on from. this year, while
not the worst, also hasn't been the best. or at least, not as good as it could
have been. primarily in that is the marriage mayhem that we had this year. yes we
are back together, but what we had to go through to get here is nothing i wish to
ever experience again, and i am more than ready to put as much time between us
and the events of this past year as far behind us as possible. it all worked out
for the best, but with us, working things out as we are NEXT year will be so much
better! mr. hyde is gone and hopefully will stay gone. the stress of unemployment
does have him attempting to peek through every so often, but we are aware, or
more accurately HE is aware, and can put the monster back in his place before
we have any real trouble with it. and next year, once the surgery has been done,
the whole unemployment thing will, hopefully become a moot point. (the fun thing
is, when you are unemployed get all stressed out from being unemployed, but as
soon as you get a job you then have job stress!)
DominoDesigns, for all the effort i
put into it this past year (and money! arg!) became nothing more than another
linkware site with its own cult following. i can live with that. with school,
visions, expressions,
eloquence and a few other things
other than net sisters, family and all that, i am not going to have time to put
as much effort into dd. on the one
hand this absolutely sucks. i love graphic and web design. i really do. on the
other hand it all worked out for the best. and being so busy with school and such
next year will take my mind off my "failure". maybe sometime in the
next year i can dedicate some time to getting my drawing skills back and then
being able to offer completely original works, rather than relying on the tools
of the trade as much: fonts and tubes. not that these are bad, but being able to
make your own art, logos and images is a definite plus. (as you can see i fall
in the "jack of all trades" category - i design, write, draw, and do
many other creative things...but am a master of none.)
visions is still too new to make any
judgment about. i suppose it would be a good idea to get it into the search engines,
but i had put so much energy into dd
that i just have not been sure if i really want to make all that effort and have
it flop like dd has. regardless, it is a good thing since both visions
and eloquence help hone my writing
skills. something an english major (with a creative writing concentration) could
always use. and many seem to think that this is where my talent truly lays, in
writing. we shall see. visions is doing
ok for what it is. i don't even know if many people bother to visit eloquence.
but in addition to these two things i will have fugue
and expressions both to
help hone my skills as well. plus, maybe the game that has been "on hold"
this whole year will finally get off the ground in january. something else i really
look forward too, playing again (even if i have to gm it to do so!).
and this is pretty much how the year 2000 has gone. nothing fantastic, but not
devastating either (for which i am grateful!). i am really hoping to see some
really good stuff next year. i am not even expecting a spectacular year, but it
would be nice to have one where things just go our way for the most part. i know,
i know, what a way for someone who believes in learning from the experience to
think. and i do believe that in all things we have something to learn, something
to make us a better person. but every so often ALL of us really want things to
go our way. i am not expecting to move from our neighborhood, but a car and good
job for saxy would be just as good for us. i am not hoping for dd
to explode with business, but some paying work would be nice. i don't have grand
plans in life. but it would be nice to get to where my parents were when i was
a kid, and it would be even nicer for that to start next year.
this year wasn't a bust. but next year has so much potential, and i would like
to get a taste. like everyone else who's year wasn't fantastic but wasn't god
awful. it's human nature to want things to be better than they were before. and
while i may seem to dwell on last year a bit much, i really don't actually. next
year presents a whole new load of experiences and things to dwell on and write
about and grow through. maybe, even if things are about the same, just being different
is enough. the same old same old can be just as tedious and as much a downer as
truly depressing experiences sometimes.
so here's hoping for better and different, for all of us.
happy holidays from whyspered moments. just click on the kao to go pick him up.
a link back appreciated but not required.