i am in that state of constantly being tired again. and i do mean constantly. i'm awake for 2 or 3 hours and then all i want to do is go back to bed. it's that iron deficiency thing, along with a body preparing for that female thing. i'm generally tired pretty constantly anyway, but take away my iron and tired becomes an understatement, especially when working on doing the female thing. and right now i have no iron. my credit card is over limit so i can't order the iron that works best with my body. so, i'm out and have no way to get more. i am taking my multivitamin, so i'm getting 100% of the average normal person needs, but only about 1/10th what I need.

i keep telling myself things will get better. they will. i hope. how soon is in question, but they will.

anyway, looks like we're going to have something of a small christmas, comprising mostly of our traditional christmas dinner. saxy's been working on a few things for the kids, so they won't be totally presentless from us (and a certain dad needs to stay away from the music store until he sees what they have). he picked up the cornish game hens over 2 shopping trips, several people gave us food boxes so we have things like stuffing, potatoes, and yams, and his parents will be bringing the rolls, green beans, pies, and sparkling cider.

this is what the kids wanted, our traditional christmas meal: stuffed cornish game hens, mashed potatoes, yams with brown sugar and marshmallows, crescent rolls, cranberry sauce, green beans, corn, olives, sparkling cranberry cider, and pies. when we can afford it, i make christmas cookies, but this is not a year i can afford it.

they also wanted the grandparents (saxy's folks, i think my mother makes them almost as uncomfortable as she makes me) to come over to eat. we weren't too certain if this was going to happen since his mother is having a lot of issues and his father never seemed to completely recover from the accident. however, word is now that they will be here and are bringing a small ham since the cornish game hen is a problem for some reason. i baste them with butter and cover them with brown sugar and spices. maybe the butter is the issue since i know she can't eat movie popcorn anymore. they actually also come out real rich. i've managed to perfect the cooking, even with my faulty brain, so the meat falls off the bone. nummy. ;)

this year, however, i will be teaching the oldest how to cook the christmas meal. she's got 2 holidays left before she can (and might) move out. my mother never taught me how to make a turkey or a holiday ham or anything, so i'm passing my holiday meal on. i think she's actually looking forward to it. :)

so, no christmas tree or decorations, no stockings, but the gifts are handmade with love and the dinner and company will be excellent.